#20180518 scared of following girl again

#0518 I don’t known should I follow H. A or not.

She close her facebook, reject my invitation, so I felt ashamed. I don’t know I could overcome me ego to talk with her again. I still have good impression on her but I need some more signal from her to start talk with her again.

So, I think I should keep silent until I feel want to talk with her.

#0518 Just read a new blog from QT she is so special.

I don’t know why I still want to reconnect with her although every time we chat, we want to block each other immediately =)). I don’t know but It looks like we have same opinion about life inside but total different character outside. I don’t know how to do but let’s time and faith decide.

Overthinking and don’t know which is true. Ok, try to be calm, take care about people you like, If they care you back that is “The one” you should follow.

#0518 Which is my true feeling

Confused about my feeling, because I felt uncomfortable if I chat with a girl just for reason that I want to be her friend.

But ok, like tennis. When you feel awkward that is signal that you are changing.

#0519 I have a short conversation with her after one week keep silent.

She open access to her account so I could understand about her more. She still have high ego but willing to chat with me. We are opposite signs so compatibility is not easy. But why don’t give it a chance 🙂


#0514 Tsukuba Life deadline end of this month

#0514 Be careful

my boss said that I should be careful about my respond for work, when I sad I will go back last week but I have postponed for one week. And we will have a demonstration end of this month, so a lot of stress and I think I should find out way to resolve it. Poor me =))

Could not stop overthinking, how can I understand program. It is so complicated.

12:58 Should train to control. My mind don’t overthinking just take it easy and let it be. If you like don’t be shy

8:12ーpm I am feeling shy because I am not a good player so people don’t want to play with me. Feeling alone but I won’t give up. Because I love tennis, so I could endure lonely to live with tennis for the rest of my life.

#0518 Give a stranger one washing machine and an electric thermos pot

A member of việt Tsukuba ask for some domestic electric appliance for her younger brother who just came to Tsukuba to learn Japanese

I had a spare washing machine and electric thermos pot, so I give it to him and bring it to his home on the way I back from early morning tennis at Ichinomiya Resident of Tsukuba University. I felt happy when I could help someone.

When you do other a favour, don’t require payback. Keep giving away and you will receive surprised gift at somewhere in sometime.

20180513, her, turning point of my life

#0513 Wake up in the morning and realized she has blocked my message and unfriend me on Facebook.

On the way to flight back to Japan and reflect on myself about my behavior in following a girl.

I have learned:

1. Don’t spam girl when she had said she don’t like you. Keep patient, be gentle and waiting for the right time to talk with her again, if not she will block or unfriend you, and it is more difficult to connect with her again.

2. If you really like a girl, don’t matter how did she treat you, block you, unfriend you or ignore your messages, you still like her and follow her. Your should understand that, to follow a perfect girl is an impossible task if you can’t overcome your ego and have enough patience.

3. Each girl have something to teach you, don’t waste time groaning why she don’t like you back, why she block you. Take time to reflect yourself and learn from your failure.

4. Decided to reconnect with a girl, who hate me, blocked me, unblocked me, I blocked her, and now unblocked her again :)). Because I think If I could endure her crazy character I should throw away my ego and follow her again . I accept to break my rule because I still like her. This time I will try just be friend and if we think we can be together. We will continue.

#0514 Change your way in following a girl

Everything take time, she taught me but I am too stubborn to accept it. Like yesterday morning when I drive car to Noi Bai Airport, I saw a sign said that I should go straight why My sister sad I should turn left. After one day rethinking about it, both are true because it also have a crossing bridge to connect with international departure T1. I know we should keep calm and discuss before giving any judgements to anyone.

#0515 Talk again with girl who had blocked me before

So our relationship looks like we hav divorced and now talk again. I felt so awkward and it is really a very uncomfortable feeling. But I still like and want to talk with her so I just want to give me a chance again. If she doesn’t accept it, I respect her choice. So a lot of stress. Could not understand how to flirt a girl. Or my “The one” still not appear. I don’t know, just try to do things I want and do it from bottom of my heart.

Honestly, I felt like I and her are getting divorced because she block my facebook, and I chose to follow a younger girl, after I got rejected by 96 girl I want to reconnect with her. Shameful me but I don’t care about my edo or my esteem, If I still like her I don’t care about past, just do thing I like.

I felt like I get lost in my mind and don’t know what to do, who should I follow, who really care about me.

Ok calm down and remember that you and she is noy friend and you should be gentle and respect her feeling.

#0517 Don’t know what to do so I keep freeze

I like her and want to chat or talk with her but I don’t know how to start. I am afraid of failure again =)). Poor me, I felt tired of following so I thought I should take rest for 2-3 month to reflect about my past action and figure out better way to approach girl I like.

20180506 Her, is she the actual the one of my life, I think so

I am sorry when I forgot my previous her so fast but I thought We don’t need spend time to care about people who don’t like us. Spend time on people who care about you and like you as you like them

#0506 I am anxious for tomorrow meet up with Her

She is a super active, cute girl from Law University. I like her English style, her positive thinking about life and the way she reply friend’s comment. I don’t know what should I do to impress her but I think, to be honest is the most importance character we need in our partner. So If I like her I won’t hesitate to let her know that and reasons why I like her. I hope she could give me a chance to understand her.

#hopeforthebest #Hopethingsgowell


#0507 can not hold my anxious feeling about meeting with her tonight

I felt this is the first date with some one who care about me. She is so special and I can’t help feeling about her and how to connect with her.

I just want her to lower her criteria in chosing the one of her life. I mean, i have overcome 33 years on the FA road to find the one, confront a lot of trouble and got ton of rejected. So I hope she could accept me as fast as she can do. Don’t make me tired in following the one anymore.

I could say I like her but I am not sure will she like me as much as I am and could overcome every trouble of life with me.

0508 7:01 Pm, wake up at 4:51 Am and writing this note. I feel the meet up went well. I know I am not going to find Ms. Perfect, I am going to find Ms. MutualLike, who I like and she also like me back. We still need time to increase connection to stand each other’s bad character =)). I will try to keep in touch with and hope things go well and we can overcome difference about opinion, character, esteem, ego….

#0508 Sent an email to boss about my postpone for work hope lucky will come


#0509 Totterring feeling about Her

Thinking about her all day and wandering, does she worth for me to off 1 week from work, shamelessly send her message to invite her hangout with me. I have my own pride, my validity, I will try my best until the end but I hope her know that and have suitable feedback. I realized that if a girl doesn’t care about you and you are merely an unilateral pity follower, she isn’t deserve your effort. Keep go on and I find the Ms. Care who can see good characters inside your soul through Facebook posts =))

Having 3 days remain and I hope I can use it effectively.

#0511 Pockyday and is Pocky Girl the right one for you or The one is Libra Girl

I have good impression about Her but I don’t know how to connect with her. I decided to follow both pocky girl and libra girl. If one of these girl is the right one, they will care about me as much as I care about her.

11:10 Am Libra girl ignore my invitation message and Pocky Girl gently reject my invitation with reason : She is busy, Her boss does agree her tp. Have break time to hang out with me. I know finding the one is not an easy task, I realized that I should appreciate girl who ignore me or reject my invitation, because they help me to know who is the right one and who really care about me and live with me for the remaining life. My future wife, please stay calm and patient, I am trying my best on the way to find you.

“Never give up, even when you see a dead end. Not until you try your best, because you will know you tried your best at the dead end”- Pinterest. Com

20180504 Can I meet Her at Sai Gon? THE END of my unilateral like.

Wake up at 3:17Am and Arrived at Noi Bai Airport at 4:07Am and couldn’t find a reliable reason to meet her. I feel I am so crazy and desperate.

Gate 5, Seat 34G. Is this flight will help me find the one or another flight. I don’t know but I believe that everything I do somehow help bring me closer to Her, The One of My life :).

I try to enjoy time in Sài Gòn and meet old and new friends, learn from them and be a better people of myself.

Hello summer and Sai Gon’s sunlight. I finally arrived Sai Gon and still don’t know how to send an natural message :).

#Message to her and she reply

“Thực ra là e rất thích Nhật :))) cũng có thể e sẽ đi học mba ở Nhật :))) chỉ là e ko thích anh. Dù sao cũng cám ơn anh ạ”.

That made me sad but necessary to provoke my mind that she don’t like me and don’t. I am a but sad but I mist accepted that we can’t force someone like if they don’t. Love need mutual like and If we got trapped in unilateral like we should find a way to get out. I don’t feel sad to much because it is unilateral like and we should waste our emotion for people who don’t like u.

Bye bye my tình cảm đơn phương bọ xít.

Waiting for better things will come in my life and enjoy every moment of life as It comes.

20180501 International Labor day back to Viet Nam

#0501 Today I go back to my grandfather’s home to have a party with descendent of our ancestors.

My parents, grandfather and my cousin in pink clothes.

Enjoy every moment of life as It comes.

Dog meat party with my cousin :))

#0508 Got ignored from Jack and I thought I should block him to not disturb him too much.

I am an annoyed people who send a ton of messages to him every day, groaning on about my feeling about temporary the one. I thought I shouldn’t bother him anymore and the most cruel way is the best way to get rid of him. I am sorry for blocking him on Instagram =))

20180405 Tsukuba Tennis life

#0405 I was refused by tennis

Today, I went to Maegaia Tennis school and hope meet some night tennis player but no one came.

I love tennis so much and want to play everyday but It is so hard to find tennis club or partner that could play everyday with you.

#0410 Happy days are comming

Wow, finally I have found some partner to practice tennis with. Yesterday, I have rally with Hiramoto san, She play very well. Later that, I play with Akao san, an officer of Citi hall. Today I have chance to practice with Nakano san, sorry I don’t remember his name, his skill is very good Stroke, slice, voley, smash, serve. I hope my skill will improve when I practice with professional people like him. I am excited looking forward tommorow.

#0420 Realized differences between Closed stance, Open stance and semi Open stance in Tennis

#0422 Bought second hand Pro staff RF 97 for 7107¥

I have just bought this amazing racket and have used them at night of April 23. Wow First time I have ever played with so much professional player. See you guys next time. I love tennis day by day.